WHO'S THIS DOUCHEBAG

I am the douchebag. It's me.

Technically my name is Taylor, but I go by Becquerel online. I am a young adult who lives in the deep south. That is all that is interesting about me. The less interesting things are that I consider myself an "artist", a "girl", and that I tend to claim I am incredibly rude and nihilistic. In reality, I am pretty shy and prefer to keep to myself. I'd like to think I am actually a very nice girl who just has really bad OCD and depresion (oh boy mental disorders, sob now.) I've managed to make some friends though, so surely I can't be that bad. Bundy had friends though too if you think about it.....

I would like to go on a walk on a nice beach in some nice flipflops, and take a nice nap, and live somewhere where it's 50 degrees all the time. I hate the heat with my whole soul. Currently I am unemployed and uncolleged, though I'm trying to solve both of those. I feel like I'm self deprecating too much so maybe I should list some positives I think I have.

As much as I don't trust people, I tend to be pretty willing to give people the benefit of the doubt, even if it's to a detriment, because I assume there's more reason for something than is clear. I have gotten off the social media platforms that probably caused the most toxicity in my life. I think I was like 32nd or 33rd ranked in my senior class, maybe I'm wrong though. I've managed to make money off of stuff I've made before, not a lot, but some. I really like cats and dogs and mostly all animals. Even despite my nihilism and stuff, I actually do try to be mildly optimistic even despite a lot of the world sucking right now.